Fifteen years ago today, I held you in my belly for just a while longer…
You yearned to get out. You made that clear with your powerful kicks and incessant hiccups.
But I still had time.
I wasn’t really ready yet. I had been too busy to make up the crib with fresh sheets, or to set out your sweet little unisex onesies. You weren’t really due for almost two more weeks, and your four-year-old brother kept me on my toes every day, asking a billion questions that I, as the mother, was expected to know.
We were busy… busy in that sense of the word when Monday just blurs to Wednesday and then Sunday… and we are left wondering where the time went.
Kind of how life is now.
I wasn’t ready. I worried that I hadn’t taken the time to savor this second pregnancy, to just sit and feel you move and just be pregnant. Those fleeting months when I carried you seem like a blip in time.
I just wasn’t ready.
Second kid, you know.
But you had your own ideas.
And when labor started, I realized that I was ready… ready to meet you. Ready to try my hand at parenting yet another little one.
And when you surprised us — a girl! — I was both giddy and cautious. I was a boy mom, after all… fluent in dinosaurs and Legos and all things boy.
But a girl?
And then you taught me about raising girls… that girls can run and climb and break bones and laugh until they snort. Taught me that life was meant for running full-force ahead, for laughing with friends and for late nights reading in bed. That there is no day that can’t be improved with a bowl of ice cream, a piece of chocolate cake or a hug from a friend… that sometimes it’s better to let little things go than to worry. That when things don’t go your way you can always try a little harder.
Fifteen years. Where has the time gone, really?
Some days I think you have taught me more about life than I could ever teach you.
I am in awe of your confidence, your loyalty, your kind spirit and your fierce determination when obstacles stand in your path.
You make me smile, make me laugh, challenge me and call my bluff.
And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Happy 15th Birthday, sweet girl…
Enjoy being 15.